He upheld his vow of celibacy because Z wasn’t really restored to him. It was clear that Z was both physically and emotionally damaged by his experiences and Phury devoted himself to his brother, keeping the peace between Z and others and even hitting Z when he asked for it, even though it was a huge mind fuck to do that to the one he loved. Phury’s foot got caught in the stone and he shot it off so he and Z could make good their escape. When he found Z and stole him from his mistress, it was almost dawn and the only way to go was over a cliff. He sold the property as it wasn’t home for either of them and continued his search. A voice in his head (that he called the wizard) started listing all his failings, a clear internalisation of the exhile dhoble superstition, but the more Phury tried to live up to the ideal male paragon, the more he was plagued by the voice and the harder he tried to compensate.ĭuring the century it took for Phury to find Z, their parents died and Phury blamed himself for not getting Z home in time to meet them.

He left his family home without ceremony and spent the next century searching for Zsadist. If you believe in the concept of the exhile dhoble (the cursed second twin), then Phury’s birth was the extra blessing that tipped the scales and everything that went wrong would then be Phury’s fault for being born. Also, denial seemed like an appropriate penance. I think it was because he never developed his own identity that he never really thought of enjoying anything, not that there was room for pleasure under the crushing weight of The Loss. Immediately after his transition he took a private vow of celibacy in honour of his lost twin. He wore hats to cover his face and tried to be small and inconspicuous to avoid reminding everyone of their loss. Sure enough, the firstborn was stolen in the middle of the night by his nursemaid and the household never recovered.Īhgony searched for his son and became depressed and turned to drink. Naseen confined herself to her room and young Phury was left to raise himself in a household too consumed with losing Zsadist to remember Phury existed. The warrior Ahgony’s household celebrated the birth of his son Zsadist, but were spooked when Phury was also born. They also believe it’s possible to have too many blessings and that misfortune will follow to compensate for the extra prosperity. Vampires believe that the birth of a healthy son is a blessing. Lover Enshrined: Amazon | Book Depository | Booktopia | Fishpond | Galaxy | Library | Audible Phury

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